Sunday, July 19, 2009

Chico, Here I Come

I've been sitting here trying to think of something to write to wrap up the last 11 months of my life here in China, but my thoughts and emotions are too jumbled and confusing to try and put them into words.

I am ready to come home - excited to see my family, catch up with friends, eat a real burrito, get my summer tan on, sleep in my own room/bed, and travel around the US before school starts in September (you can see my busy summer schedule below). But I am also very sad to leave China. This place has become my home - I feel so comfortable here and life is just so simple, straightforward, and easy. Leaving China officially marks the end of my junior study abroad year and means I've got to start facing the biggest question of being a senior: what am I going to do after graduation?

But enough worrying about the future, for now.

My bags are pretty much packed and I managed to fit everything into 3 suitcases (thanks to Mom and Dad taking some stuff home for me in June). I have one full day left in Beijing and have already planned out all my remaining meals so I get to eat my favorite Chinese foods one last time.

I leave here at noon on Tuesday and after a short stop in SF, I'll be arriving in Chico at 11:48am on the same day. For the rest of the summer, my plans are:

7/21 Home!
7/24-27 Lake Tahoe.
7/28 Sacramento.
7/31-8/2 Ashland, OR.
(8/1 Birthday)
8/3-10 Chicago, IL.
(8/7-9 Lollapalooza)
8/10-14 Meg in Chico.
8/14-16 San Francisco.
8/23 Long Valley, NJ.
8/24 Boston, MA.
9/8 School Starts.

Thanks for sticking with me through this past year. See you Stateside!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Summer Update

So...getting away from the news-related items about China and a little bit about my life.

After finishing up finals on May 15, I moved out of the international student dorms (to which I had returned after I was evicted from my homestay - not my fault, but due to their grown son's sudden onset of "psychological problems" forcing him to move back into their apartment - not that I was complaining because after the son's wife came in one day yelling, "I want a divorce! I want a divorce!," I was thoroughly ready to be out of that environment) and into an apartment down the street from my campus.

I am living with a young Chinese couple who are the friends of a friend of my Chinese tutor who I had asked for help finding a place to live for the summer. Their names are Michelle and Arthur, both 31 years old and work, respectively, in a shipping company and at a bank. They are incredibly nice, offering me a rent-free room in return for language exchange. The initial agreement was to help them practice English, but after telling them that I was hiring a Chinese teacher to keep up on my Chinese during the summer, they insisted that was unnecessary and that I should just practice speaking with them.

They introduce me to new restaurants, new massage places, new foods, new movies, and even new destinations (last weekend we traveled to Qingdao together - a coastal city and home of the famous Chinese Qingdao beer and delicious seafood). Although it is a very small apartment, the living arrangement is perfect and I wish I had spent the last semester living with them instead of just a couple short months.

Since the end of school, I have done a little bit of traveling (to Qingdao, like I mentioned, and to Tianjin - a city close to Beijing) and sight-seeing around Beijing - making sure I hit all the places on my "To Do Before I Leave Beijing" list.

AND there was a really exciting change in my summer plans. Instead of just my dad and Oliver coming out to visit me, the entire family managed to make it. My mom, dad, Oliver, and Jacqueline all came to China to visit me for ten days in June. After spending three days in Beijing showing them my home for the past 10 months, we traveled to Shanghai, Hangzhou, and Guilin, getting a little bit of cities, lakes, rivers, and nature all in one trip. Although it was a little stressful playing tour guide for them, the trip was amazing and it was really good to be all together - the last time that happened was in August 2008!

  
Wangfujing - Night Market

  
The Great Wall - Mutianyu

  
Guilin

  
Guilin & Shanghai

Before that, I had been tutoring English and continuing my internship at the UN - I was crazy busy, going from 9am to 9pm some days with 3 different jobs in between. However, after the June vacation with my family, my tutoring jobs ended (students ended for the summer holiday and one just left to attend boarding school in Massachusetts) and I completed my projects for the UN.

  
My Kids!

Thus, I am left in Beijing with nothing to do. Actually, I'm continuing to practice Chinese, just trying to stay up on characters so I don't forget everything I learned by the time I return to BC. Some of my friends stayed in Beijing for the summer to work or attend ChinaVoice (my study abroad program's summer Chinese language course) and we have been enjoying our last few weeks in China together.

19 days til home - JULY 21st!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

June Fourth

Before I forget any details (although this is highly unlikely considering the experience that I had), I want to tell you my story of what happened on 6/4/2009: the 20th Anniversary of the Tiananmen Square Incident.

First, a little background history: what comes to most people's minds when they hear of the "Tiananmen Square Incident" is the picture of a lone man blocking the passage of military tanks as they tried to reach China's largest public square where students were holding demonstrations calling for democracy - tanks that later made their way into the Square where the People's Liberation Army (PLA) fired on its own people, killing countless numbers of Chinese civilians.


And here's the "long-story-short" version of what I learned in class and through readings about the events that occurred in and around Tiananmen Square during the Spring of 1989:

University students began asking the Chinese Government for a student union that was completely independent of the Communist Party. When their requests were not just denied, but not even addressed, they began to widen their supporters, calling upon more students to join their efforts. Other groups and classes of Chinese citizens witnessed the student demonstrations in Tiananmen Square and began to come to Beijing from the countryside to add their support and voice their own grievances. The movement quickly gained momentum and numbers.

Students drafted long petitions that called on the government to address certain concerns. Kneeling in front of the government buildings for hours (a position that harks back to kneeling on bended knee for the emperor), students were ultimately ignored. They started to take more drastic measures, engaging in hunger strikes - a very sensitive and serious move in a country that recently struggled through food shortages and famines.

Thus, the "Student Democracy Movement" was not just students, not just for democracy, and was in fact, quite a disorderly movement with leaders and members constantly in flux and even battling for supreme control among themselves. There are even accounts of so-called hunger strikers sneaking away from the Square to grab a bite to eat.

In the end, the Chinese Communist Party leaders declared Martial Law and ordered the demonstrators to leave the Square - or else. Tanks started to move from the outside of Beijing in toward the center of the city. In fact, most of the casualties occurred in the streets outside of Tiananmen when ordinary citizens tried to stop the tanks from reaching the Square and were rolled over or shot instead. By the time tanks reached the Square, most of the demonstrators had left, including most of the leaders.

All of this was complicated further by the political factionalism within the Party that played out during the few weeks leading up to the Incident on June Fourth, resulting in some individuals' promotion and others' expulsion. In addition, Chinese citizens innocently believed that the "People's Army" would never harm the people it was meant to protect; while at the same time, before entering Beijing, PLA soldiers were prepped with information that the demonstrators involved were in fact trying to overthrow the Party.

Given the history, it is no wonder that the Chinese Government attempts to suppress any discussion surrounding this event - eliminating information from textbooks, the Internet, and everyday knowledge. [BBC: Chinese leaders quiet on Tiananmen 5/31/09 and NYTimes: Tiananmen now seems distant to China's students 5/21/09] However, in a country that is big on commemorations and anniversaries, the 20th anniversary of the Tiananmen Square Incident that passed on June 4, 2009 could not be ignored and I made a point to make it to the Square to witness the day's happenings myself.

On the morning of June 4th, I took the subway to the Tiananmen West station. As I was walking toward the Square, I was stopped about a block away by a group of policemen who asked to check my bag - not an official check, but just a quick look and then they let me pass. Lining the streets around the Square were tons of police and security guards, standing in groups and looking incredibly awkward as they attempted to appear casual - as if the increased police presence was not due to the date, but was simply a usual routine practice. [BBC: Tiananmen in anniversary lockdown 6/4/09]

In order to reach the Square, I had to walk through a pedestrian tunnel, where I encountered the first official security check. After putting my bag through the x-ray machine, I was pulled aside and asked for my passport (to my disappointment, they obviously knew I was a foreigner even though I had been trying to exude my best Chinese attributes). Since I don't usually carry my passport with me, I handed them my Chinese student ID, which the young policeman accepted and then let me through. Phew...made it into the Square.

The minute I walked onto the Square and looked around, I immediately started laughing. I had read journalistic accounts of the plain-clothes cops that are often planted in Tiananmen Square during sensitive dates to keep the peace while maintaining a semblance of normalcy. But when I saw them on June 4th, I couldn't help myself: they were so blatantly obvious that their attempted concealment only made them stand out more.

Groups of young men stood huddled in pairs or groups of 3 underneath umbrellas. (Granted, using umbrellas to block the sun is common among Chinese people; however, those people are usually girls, not men, and definitely not several men together.) With matching hats and umbrellas, they tried to look like regular Chinese tourists. However, upon closer examination, the ear pieces and walkie-talkies gave them away. And after who-knows-how-many months or years of training, the plain-clothes cops could never get rid of their straight-backed posture. In fact, they even walked in step with the cops in uniform. Way to blend in.

After walking around, I left the Square to check out a nearby museum I wanted to visit. And it was during my second attempt to enter the Square that I ran into problems. This time, after putting my bag through the security machine, I was pulled aside and examined more closely. However, the only difference that I ran into this time when compared to the first was that the police realized I had my laptop with me. For some reason, the combination of not having my passport but having a laptop was a no-no for letting me into the Square (also, when responding to their question of "Where are you from?," replying with "America" probably didn't help my case - I should have played my Chinese card there). I was refused entrance and told to walk across the street from Tiananmen Square to reach the subway station and return home.

Like I was going to let that stop me. I walked across the street and through another entrance where they let me through with no questions asked and I got to enjoy one more stroll through the "trying-to-appear-casual-but-really-adding-more-tension-to-this-already-sensitive-oops!-I-mean-not-sensitive-date" environment.

And what struck me the most about all of this was that it just seemed so absolutely pointless.

The reason that the Chinese Government did not want to commemorate nor crackdown during June 4th was because any acknowledgement of the date in any manner would be admitting its very existence. However, all the tactics used to "ignore" the 20th anniversary (i.e. plain-clothes cops) only made the day more unusual. In addition, the measures taken to increase security - oh, but wait, we can't admit that we're increasing security - (i.e. security checks, bag x-rays, etc.) were not uniform nor effective. For any trained eye, or common bystander for that matter, there was definitely something different going on at Tiananmen Square on June 4th, 2009 - and no matter how much the government wants to suppress the memory of the date, its existence cannot be erased.

[I managed to take pictures of Tiananmen Square on June 4th, but seeing as my digital camera broke, I only had a disposable camera to use and have not had a chance to develop the pictures yet, but I'll put them up soon!]

Online Obstruction

And hello again!

While I'm not trying to make any excuses, the most recent absence of blog updates was not due to my inattention or inability to find time to write, but to the facts of life living in a Communist China. To tell the story, I have included a short message I sent to some of my friends on May 28:

"umm...let's talk about how the chinese government has now added blogspot/blogger to their list of forbidden websites (along with youtube) so that i can no longer update my own blog nor read your guys' (which i was planning to catch up on this summer when i had more free time).

so much for a government that claims: 'china does not fear the internet. in fact, it is just the opposite.' so that means the internet fears china? then why must all these websites be made inaccessible?

you can see i harbor no anger/frustration toward this situation. especially since i cannot waste my precious time watching stupid youtube videos.

fyi: youtube was shut down due to a video of the chinese police violently beating up protestors in tibet. blogspot was shut down because of the upcoming 20th anniversary of the tiananmen square incident on june 4 (when the government ruthlessly suppressed a student movement calling for democracy by bringing in army tanks and rolling over and gunning down innocent civilians) and fear that the freedom of blogs could allow chinese people to actually voice themselves or have access to the 'truth.'

and that's the end of this episode of 'life in a communist country.'

oh what i would give for real freedom."

And an even more recent update: after blocking YouTube and Blogger, networking sites such as Twitter were blocked in the lead up to the 20th Anniversary of the Tiananmen Square incident and Facebook was rumored to be on the brink of becoming inaccessible. [NYTimes: To shut off Tiananmen talk, China disrupts sites 6/2/09] Currently, Google is now being targeted with many searches coming up blank (especially image searches) in what the Chinese Government has called its fight to control/eliminate access to pornography. [BBC: Google access disrupted in China 6/25/09]

But seeing as I found a free, downloadable program that goes around the Chinese Internet blocks, thus enabling me to write this blog despite continued blockage, I'm pretty confident that those Chinese citizens who want porn will still manage to get it somehow.

So if the Chinese Government is ineffective in its attempts to eliminate access to pornography, what new excuse will it make to defend its tight command on the public's Internet access (including its most recent announcement to install web-filtering software on all future PCs)? [BBC: China defends screening software 6/9/09]

The Great Firewall of China.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Great Wall Reflections



Last month, TBC organized a trip to go see the Great Wall at Mutianyu (this is the same location that we went to at the beginning of Fall semester with the toboggan that you can ride down to the bottom). Since it was a "free" trip (paid for by my tuition - Thanks Mom and Dad!), I decided to take the opportunity to go see the Great Wall one more time.

  

And this time, it was completely different.

No longer in my honeymoon period with China, I was not the naive tourist buying overpriced souvenirs from vendors along the walk to the Great Wall. I did not purchase the expensive toboggan ticket and decided to get more exercise by walking back down.  I was not snapping pictures left and right. Instead, I brought my iPod and a book and walked along the Wall and listened to music before finding a quite place to sit in the sun and read for a little.

And then I started reflecting.

I cannot tell you how weird, awesome, and complete it felt to be sitting back in the place that my entire study abroad experience started. When I first went to the Great Wall at Mutianyu, I was still forming new friendships with people I had met just days before. I was super excited to start on our Silk Road trip and get to see more parts of China. I was beginning to get comfortable with the idea of living in this strange and intriguing place for the next 9 months.

Little did I know at that time, I would travel in, out, and throughout China multiple times through my adventures on the Silk Road, Guilin, Nanjing, Suzhou, Shanghai, Yunnan, Vietnam, and Thailand. I am still planning more adventures for this summer with weekend trips to (hopefully!) South Korea, Hangzhou, Harbin, Xinjiang (Kashgar) and back to Guilin possibly when Dad and Oliver come to visit in June.

Little did I know that I would be leaving here with SO much (even TOO much) knowledge about China, its politics, economics, culture, history, etc. That I would get an internship at the United Nations World Food Programme as an undergraduate student and get a UN document published under my name. That I would fall in love with this country so much that I would extend my trip an extra 2 months in order to take full advantage of the opportunity of living, studying, and just being here.

Little did I know I would be forging friendships and relationships with people (Chinese and foreigners) that would last far beyond my return trip back to the United States. And that goodbyes are sometimes the most bittersweet endings.

Most of all, I had NO idea how much I would learn about myself. My limits, my flaws. The things I need to work on, the things I am sure of. What my goals are for the future, what I'm doing in the present. Being true to myself and being flexible to adapt to things that are out of my comfort zone. And I hope that this personal growth process continues this summer when I have the time to think about and process everything that I've gone through these past 2 semesters.

Once I get through finals (ahh!!), I will be smooth sailing until July 21 when I return to America: continuing my internship at the UN, tutoring English to kids and adults to make some money, studying and keeping up on my Chinese on the side, and exploring Beijing without the stress of school/classes. I'm staying with a young Chinese couple in their apartment right outside my school campus and if I help them practice English, I don't have to pay rent!

Dad and O come in the middle of June for 10 days and I get to show them what has been my "home" since last August. Apart from that, I'm still enjoying my time here immensely. Checking off that list of "Things I MUST Do Before Leaving China" and making sure I take advantage of everything I can while I'm still here.

The only thing I'm a little scared about is the return home to the States and the potential "reverse culture shock" that could befall me like it has some of my friends from last semester who returned home. However, I think (and hope) that my excitement about seeing my family, friends, and returning to BC will overpower any doubts or problems I may face.

  

Friday, May 1, 2009

Spring Break '09: THAILAND

As the spring semester is winding down here (1 week left before finals!), I thought I'd let you know about some MORE traveling I did at the end of March/beginning of April.

For Spring Break, TBC organizes an optional trip to Sichuan, where the main focal point of the trip is to see huge Buddha sculptures and hold baby pandas (which you have to pay hundreds of dollars to do). However, seeing as we heard previous Sichuan trips weren't very fun compared to other TBC trips and I'm not much of an animal person (I can see a panda in almost any zoo), my friends and I decided to forgo the planned trip and spend our Spring Break on our own discovering THAILAND.

 

[Turns out this was a VERY good decision as the Sichuan trip was plagued with rainy weather, cold temperatures, and food poisoning contracted by 90% of the group.]

5 of my friends and I flew down to Bangkok where we stepped off the plane into hot and humid weather - something we haven't experienced since arriving in Beijing last August. We spent 1.5 days in Bangkok: staying in cheap hostels, eating cheap and delicious street food (pad thai and spring rolls being sold on the streets), and being asked constantly if we wanted to see a "Ping Pong" show (no thanks, I'll pass).

 

We stayed on "Backpackers Street," which was full of foreigners - including gross, old, white men with young Thai girls EVERYWHERE. We got over that scene really quick (too touristy and fake) and toured around the city in tuk-tuks. We were driven from temple to temple, getting ripped off each time because we were all too busy with midterms to do any research beforehand. But it all worked out and we found a travel agency that set up roundtrip transportation to Kochang Island off the southeast coast of Thailand.

Upon our arrival on Kochang, the owners of the hotel that the agency had booked for us (The Souk) picked us up at the dock and drove us a quick 5 minutes to their establishment: a group of several bungalows situated RIGHT on the beach on the quieter, less touristy, and more local side of the island. Besides one other guest, we were the only ones there, so we pretty much had our own private bungalows on our own private beach.

 
 

The owners were incredible and set up elephant trekking and snorkeling adventures for us, including providing transportation into the city areas so we didn't have to pay for cab fares (cabs were trucks where you sat in the bed and held on for dear life when speeding up the windy hills). We relaxed on the beaches, swam in the blue water, saw coral reefs, rode atop HUGE elephants (and swam with them too!), and enjoyed home-cooked Thai food - my favorite!

 
             

The vacation was a greatly needed break from school and homework. And after our return from Thailand, we were relaxed, rejuvenated, (TAN!), and ready to face the last five weeks of our study abroad experience at TBC.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Yunnan

  
  

These have been pretty long recently, so to get you caught up on my travels in China earlier this year, I will keep details to a minimum and you can view my adventure through pictures instead.

  

From January 18-February 4, our study abroad program took us on an academic excursion to Yunnan Province in the southern part of China. We traveled to several cities including Kunming, Dali, Lijiang, and Zhongdian (on the Tibetan Plateau). Famous for the ethnic minority populations that live there, we spent three nights in homestays with different villages - eating traditional foods, watching ethnic dancing, and playing with the children. Being on the trip during Chinese New Year added an exciting aspect to the atmosphere and there were firecrackers and fireworks exploding day in and day out around the holiday.
 
              
  

Two moments of the trip stand out to me the most. The first happened on a bike ride (but no crashing this time). In our huge pack of students and tour guides, my friends and I somehow got separated from the group. The weather was warm, the sun was out, and the water in the river below was clear and blue...so we decided to go down and stick our feet in. There were only 5 of us, and the boys immediately started jumping off rocks into the freezing cold water. Not wanting to miss out on this experience ("You're only in China once"), my friend Ashley and I joined in. The whole situation was just perfect: good weather, good friends, doing something that no one else in our group was doing, having fun, and not worrying about anything. It was only later that we found out it was the Mekong River, which prompted us running around and yelling, "Guess what we just did? We just swam in the MEKONG RIVER!!"

     

The second was our visit to an orphanage in Zhongdian. We only spent 3 to 4 hours with the children at the orphanage - playing games, dancing, singing, giving them gifts - but it was an experience that I will always remember. A Swiss Chinese woman (who grew up as an orphan in Switzerland) opened 3 orphanages in China and is now Mom to over 200 kids (the Chinese Government allows her to officially adopt them despite the One Child Policy). It was just amazing to see their innocent love for life and happiness that we had come to play with them. Driving away from the group was pretty moving and as our buses pulled away, I found myself crying as I waved goodbye to the children.

     

But the biggest part about it for me was the reaffirmation that I was in the right place (China) at the right time in my life (now) and on the right path (International Studies Major with a concentration in Ethics and Social Justice) to doing what I want in life (helping other people). I have never really been certain about what I want to do in the future (and I still don't know), but the way the experience at the orphanage moved me just reassured me that I'm doing the right thing and everything else will fall into place when it needs to.